Advent
2a “John scares me.”
But
for John the Baptist , repentance isn’t about any of those emotional
things. Repentance for John is about
loyalty and committing ourselves to the right side. Repentance is a shift in our identity and a
totally new allegiance. Repentance is
about leaving home to become a citizen of a new land. Repentance is about being a homeless refugee
who wants asylum, a refugee who wants shelter from a tornado, protection from a
winter storm.
You
may remember the fall of 1989. The world
was psyched for the first game of the World Series, dubbed the battle of the
bay or the Bay bridge series but it came to be called the earthquake series
because it was disrupted by a powerful and devastating earthquake. Suddenly, instead of double plays and
sacrifice flies, we got televised scenes of a collapsed freeway, the mission district of San Francisco
burning, and a chunk of the Bay Bridge fallen into the water not far from the
old Alcatraz prison. That night on the
For
most people repentance is being startled out of our dreamy existence. It is so serious that in the Episcopal Church
we have a baptismal vow aimed right at it.
Question: “Will you persevere in resisting evil and whenever you fall
into sin, repent and return to the Lord?”
Answer: “I will with God’s help.
This is a baptismal vow and also a John the Baptist vow. It is not about keeping an eye on our
rottenness. It is about keeping an eye
on our loyalties. Returning to the Lord
is about renewing our commitment and loyalty to Jesus.
Those
of us who have chosen sides and chosen to be loyal to Jesus never give up on
themselves, no matter how many times we have to pick ourselves up and repeat
the process. We will keep choosing
sides and turning around, every day if need be.
We never say “never”. I’ll never recover, I’ll never overcome this sin
or this addiction, or I’ll never learn.
Why because believe in God’s goodness more than in our badness. We say “I will with God’s help.”
This
is the disturbing message of John the Baptist.
He offers us a fresh start, a cold shower, a wake up call. He offers it as a beginning, not an end. He doesn’t show up when we want him, but he
shows up when we need him. Whenever we
are feeling too comfortable, whenever we feel we’ve got it made John’s booming
voice wakes us up. Repent for the